It has been two weeks since I signed in WordPress. I was brave enough to change my wallpaper/background (what ever you call it), but that’s all. This wordpress should help me to keep reflective diary of my course work next 18 months and also it gives me opportunity to keep my own websites. Not much to add here yet tho, but surely things changes after a while.
Writing in English is quite challenging for me. I find it really scary in a way, but mostly cause I don’t want to be embarrassed how badly I write. Every now and then I need to check how to write words or how to build sentences and such. All this unnecessary checking makes my writing even slower and it’s annoys me badly. I’m sure that when I get rid of my paranoid behavior and shyness I’ll have plenty to say and write (you understand or not)!
Love, Shy sunday
October 2, 2011
Next 18 months I live in UK, studying my Masters in ceramics. Next 18 months I’m going to find my own visual self when it comes to ceramics. Next 18 months I want to concentrate on my visual expression (instead of listening small-minded institution who’s looking for potential young designers to carry the institutions reputation and image). I’m going to focus on my own interests and with marvelous help I’ll be able to reach what I came to learn and find.
In my head I know exactly what I want to do next 18 months and what are the goals, but I just can’t write it in white and black. Cause I am a full-time student it would be wise to get sorted as soon as possible, but I don’t like to hesitate. Not when I have to write it and sign it. Hopefully things will come clear to me the more I update my thoughts and just keep doing my research and creative thinking (if you can call it that).
Three weeks behind and fourth weeks starts in few hours. I feel I haven’t done much, even I am doing everyday something! Soon I have to stop collecting pictures, and get ready to do some serious sketching. Inspirational images will pop out around every corner when I start to do my project (maybe cause I’m keep thinking it subconsciously).
Besides I’m always careful finding it too hard something what I really like. It is easier to copy and imitate something than figured it out yourself. Takes amount of courage to put yourself out. Your real self. Have to be a tough to take criticism of your own work where you have put you heart and soul.
I’m shy person, but it’s always difficult for me to put my art out in public and take positive feedback, but criticism has never been a problem for me tho. I have a thick skin. I don’t mind what people think. I believe that everyone has a right to have an opinion. Different opinions grow your mind and personality, and actually you might learn or get to know different way of thinking (what you wouldn’t normally do on your own).
Love, shy sunday
I grow a rainbow on my head
I went to see young Chine’s, Huajin Qui, fist solo exhibition. I can’t believe that I manage to convinced my fiance to come with me. For him art culture is a one big Bibbidi-Bobbidi -Boo, and he often thinks that most artists are pretentious.
The art exhibition was in Preston, at the Mysterious Teahouse. The beginning was awkward and confusing: when you stepped in the teahouse there were few customers downstairs and even less artist’s paintings. First conclusion was that ‘Is this it’. After few awkward minutes the artists himself came to guide you upstairs to his exhibition. I wonder why the teahouse’s stuff couldn’t mention anything from the start. Did they just want to fool people to buy their crappy tea?
Atmosphere was warm and intimate. Colourful paintings against warm orange walls, more or less 20 people in a small coffee-room, wine and food tables and musician playing quietly guitar middle of the room next to the food table. Exhibitions, were I have been, are usually in a wide space. Paintings are against white background so they get attention what they need and deserve. People have room enough to mingle and breathe fresh air.
Everything was different this time. I find it first quite distressing, but I got used to it after a while. Even thought the paintings were against orange background, they popped out marvellously.
His paintings style is abstract, but subjects surrealistic, dreamy. I don’t usually like any abstract art, but this time I made an exception. I really loved the idea how his themes came from dreams, and he put them in a whole different concept: describing dreams through his strong abstract background. Even he is young he already has a strong action style to do paintings and you can see it just by looking at his art. I admire courage to express your motions by different approaching.
She’s one the most inspiring people I’ve ever met in my life. She had courage to do something different and trust instincts. I would say it is more about believing in you.
After the lecture my head was spinning of ideas, and I saw my past where I have found my inspirations before. I’m feeling more confident my brainstorming processes: trusting what I am doing (at least most of the time). Important is to follow your time, and keep your mind and eyes open. You might find surprising even from subjects which you loathe.
Finding a key to your noted unique style is true artists and designers goal.
Mrs Brown is quite innovative. She has a gift to spread that to others too.
Ceramic Biennial, Stoke-on-Trent
So wonderful art and design! That’s all I can say about this years Biennial in Stoke. Of course there is always absolutely beautiful works every year, but this year I spied with my eye several works which particularly fascinate me. I loved the decorations, fragility, ideas and scheme of things. This year I found many new inspirational artists and art:
Mostly I am fascinated by these works decorations and combining different materials together. Cartoons, interesting backgrounds and pretty ideas always gets my attention which these designs have in a way or another. I have never liked too traditional art nor too modern and strange. I like things which are easy to watch and understand.Usually things which are pretty, but not too pretty. I think too “polished” work can loose its meaning,value, and becomes bad taste calledkitsch.
Recently I have give a lot of thought to meaning kitsch:what is it and where goes the line between good and bad taste? How do I define it? What is my relationship with it and do I like it? What makes my work kitsch or are they even kitsch? Visit in Biennial gave me some new ideas and thoughts which I will bring up in my literature and contextual reviews somehow.
Here is some more works which inspired me and gave me some ideas to my own project:
Yep, all turned out to be s*** this time: some colors have burned a
I’ll put some pics here of my shitty test pieces, when I have time…way during the firing (even it was earthenware), too much glaze, paintings sucks and etc. Have to do much more test pieces. I just need to get some biscuit fired pieces some point! Meanwhile I just keep casting new clay pieces so I’ll have spare ones just in case…
Once a month is Abit Sketchy arranges this alternative life drawing. Poses are challenging and there is always a theme. This time it was games. Not sure tho from what game this theme was, but it reminded me of role or fantasy games.
I have always liked life drawing. It is the best way to learn drawing and believe it or not all the drawing starts from human body. Two hours drawing without pressure makes miracles to your mind: afterwards always feels very relaxed and I see my project and sketching from a different perspective somehow.
Metropolis is set to
November 10, 2011
Seeing my tiny buildings I ‘ve got a new idea for a new figurine! I’ll get back in this topic as soon as I get some sketchis done and actual tiny clay models. I’m very excited, and I can’t wait to get it started. It’s going to look super nice with Vasilisa figurine, if I only get the decorations matching.
Yorkshire Sculpture Park
November 11, 2011
I’mnot much a fan of artistic sculptures, because I often find them quite pretentious. I still enjoyed very much Yorkshire Sculpture Parks environmentand atmosphere: the sculptures fitted in perfectly!
For some reason I especially liked David Nash ‘Seventy-oneSteps’. I can imagine how the steps are blooming when summer comes and flowers and plants are framing the stairs. I counted the Nash’s steps, and got 72 step. Not sure tho, when you should have started to count my steps 😀 Any ways, one step doesn’t matter to me…
The main artist of SculpturePark park was spanish artist JaumePlensa. His sculptures were coveredby this creepy silence: human posture, fetal position, eyes shut, words to describesilenceand peace of mind. Not forgetting the environmentwhere sculptures where set to; a wide forestand park area. I saw a video when they builded Plensa’sexhibition in the park. It was summer time when sun was shining and grass was green. Everything looked so warm. Comparatively now it is Autumn time, almost beginning of winter, and all his sculptures got this ghostly feeling. It suited very well for my opinion. The silence in his works got me really.
Even I’m not a fan of his style I really enjoyed some of his sculptures, and ideas. Especially using letters for building figurines. I think I mostly enjoyed the sculptures where was actual written words tho, instead big mess off different cultures letters. They were more peaceful to look at.
Jaume Plensa, The Heart of Trees
AND MANY OTHERS:
November 14, 2011
I made dress models from plaster and clay. Right now I’m quite sure that I want to do the final model from plaster. As much as I like the idea of thrown figurines, my wrist can’t handle it. My old injuries makes throwing difficult, and I can’t throw as big objects as I want or need to. I made few crude version of dancing shapes, and how higher bodies are imbalance. Models don’t look finished, but it helped me got the idea how it might look eventually.
I might have to do my plaster model again tho; bottom might not be curve enough to rock. But I sure like the size and shape.
Decorations and mold casting
November 26, 2011
This week I’ve got better decoration results than few weeks ago. Practyise makes difference… I’m getting bored doing test pieces, though. I’m so anxious to get started my actual figutrines and sculptures that I can I try on decorations on them! This kind of slow working is fustrated for me. I usually just trust my instincts when I decorate or paint something. I like the final result being suprise. That way I don’t have any hight expectations which might bring me down, when I don’t get what I expected.
There is one good thing doing these decorations tests: trying different techniques. You can’t even imaging how big a diffrences I have got just using few kinds of decoration methods. Couple of tests still needs to be done, but I have a good feeling which ones I am going to use.
The basic idea is to use different decoration techniques to get layers, dimensions, in my work. Decorative and rich surfaces!
Mold casting doesn’t go as well as my other work. Pisses me off good time! I have never been very talented when it comes to plaster working. I just don’t seem to come terms with the practical and theoretical knowledge and skills. I think I have good basic skill and more than better basic knowledge of plaster working, but when it comes to practice everything just falls a part. Doens’t even matter how careful and neat I make, cause it will always go completely wrong. Oh well, you can be good in many things, but not in everything right. My weakness is plaster, mold and model making. Or maybe this thought is just between my ears. Anyways I need to stop bitching about it and get back in the game. Maybe practise makes a diffrence in this too at some point…